Today has been a very difficult day for me. My friends 13 year old son is dying of cancer. The doctors have given him 3-5 weeks left to live. Not months but weeks! I cannot even fathom the thought of losing a child and let alone knowing they have only a few weeks left to live. I have not even met Lori's son but have seen pictures and know him from stories Lori has told me but that's it yet my heart is just aching for for her and her family. I just found out a month ago that my biological dad, Floyd, also has cancer. He recently had surgery to remove colon cancer and is healing from that but now they have discovered he also has liver cancer and is in stage 4. On top of that, he may have lung cancer but that is yet to be determined. Cancer is such a wicked, evil disease. Please say a prayer for my loved ones and anyone you know who is suffering from this ugly, ugly disease.
On a different note, My son has a severe case of the terrible two's but I think he has given a whole new meaning to the word. This kid is so adorable at times you would never know he could possibly suffer from such a thing but Oh let me tell you...I left daycare today in tears! He is such an angel all day at daycare and the minute I pick him up he just practically screams bloody murder because I won't let him walk across the street without holding his hand...he's two!!!! From the moment I arrived at daycare til the moment I got him home he screamed his head off...all because he didn't want me to hold him nor would he let me hold his hand while we walked thru the parking lot to pick up Emily. I basicly had to carry a screaming kid who is trying to wriggle his way out of my arms all the while the teachers are watching in dismay because they've never seen him act that way....go figure! So I am just worn down, exhausted and picked this week to quit smoking! Ha! What a joke. I did really good until today. I had three cigarrettes just today...the most I've had this entire week. That is pretty good considerning I usually smoke almost a pack a day usually but how do you overcome such a nasty habit when there is constant stress around you and its the only thing that seems to relieve some of the tension besides a good massage but who can afford that these days with the gas prices? Not that I could afford it before but come on...enough is enough! Oh and on top of it all my sweet husband is still out of a job. Going on two months now. Lucky we have unemployment but eventually that will run out and then what? There doesn't seem to be anything available yet my husband is so gifted and talented. You think he'd be crawling with offers with all his experience..yet it just seems to be rejection after rejection. I don't want him to know this but I'm a little scared of our future!
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